I used to have a desire to be seen in doing good. I wanted a chance to “be something” and would not always treat people like I should. I am not saying I was ruthless or even malicious. I am saying I was prideful and impatient. I wanted my reward now. I was also insecure – I wanted to know I was needed by people. Man, it was a stressful season for me…because I never got what I wanted. I did good, but grew weary.
It wasn’t until a faithful mentor in my life explained to me that it doesn’t require me to overwork myself to get things done – in essence – I am not that great. Ouch! But oh so true! I grew weary because my focus was not on what it should be. I was doing good for the soul reason to further myself when I should be doing good because that is what I am supposed to be doing.
I should do everything unto God and not worry about who sees it…He sees it. This revelation began to birth in me a peace that allowed me to love people like I never have because I no longer looked to them for my worth. I looked to be a blessing to them. I learned that, at the end of the day, God has my back and I don’t need to be noticed, seen, or praised by others. Don’t get me wrong, those things are great, but they are not necessary to fulfil the calling on my life.
Being faithful unto God, leaning on Him, learning that it takes all of us to get the work done has been an epiphany that set me free. I no longer allow myself to become weary because my source is Him. Pride can suffocate you like nothing else.
I know you are asking yourself why I decided to share this with you…here is why – because the way our society is set up, we can get lost in the desire of others’ approval and it become our downfall. We see it in celebrities all the time. The church and those of faith cannot follow that pattern. We must remain humble and under the hand of God. That way, we do not seek something from a fellow person that they cannot give.
I know there are going to be days that I will fail at this and fall back to my old ways, but know that I need to find my way back. Will you join me on this journey?
Live your life free of expecting things from others. God will ensure that you are taken care of. He will make sure you get what you need. Just keep doing good.
“And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart. Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all, especially to those who are of the household of faith.”Galatians 6:9-10 NKJV
Boldly Radiant 